life wears me out. i really do like John Piper...not as much as some people i know, but nonetheless God uses him to speak the truth. well...God uses a lot of people, but yeah you know. i took two three hour naps this weekend....what's happening to me. i never used to do this sorta thing. i am so very weak. i am not what i want to be, but Christ is so incredible that He loves me regardless of how screwed up i am.
last night megan and i sang songs. it was really good. i like singing songs to Jesus. i am not worthy, but He accepts me. cool huh? yeah freakin incredible. i like to think about things a lot. i like to watch others. i like to sit back and take things in. i don't want to be the person who talks a lot or takes center stage. that's not me....i don't want to pretend that it is. i have a lot of work to do this week, but i am going to try to make sure to balance it with God time. a balance does not do Him justice, but baby steps right? right. more time with Jesus = more joyful katie. everybody benefits from that. today is valentines day....yeah not my favorite day ever, but maybe it's because i struggle with being bitterly single...God is breaking me....i am finding more joy than i used to in where i'm at. progress is good. my Jesus loves me more than any other human being will ever be able to love me and He celebrates valentines day everyday....He calls me His beloved everyday. i am so human....that's okay because i do not have to stay this way. i mean i stay human, but not in my mind set. yeah you get me. well i have class in awhile....i should work on a paper in the mean time. good plan indeed. i love you all.