wednesday. ash wednesday. Jesus went into the desert for 40 days. he fasted and prayed. i thought about what it means for me to go into the desert for these forty days.... i am not sure quite yet. i have some ideas that have been on my heart, but i think i may just keep them to myself. if i talk about it i will feel like i am doing it for others when i want to be doing it for God. okay...well just know that this is the start of Jesus' tempting.... mine as well.
today when i was driving home from school i passed a homeless man who holds a poster on the off ramp of the 101 at the Madonna Exit. i see this same guy almost everyday. today i was in the lane next to him which i'm usually not in... i looked down and saw that i had a bag of chips in my car that i could have possibly eaten sometime, but chances were that i would forget about them and discover them weeks down the road. i glanced down and noticed that i had an opportunity. i rolled down the window and offered this man the bag of chips. for those of you who know me or who i have talked to you about my fears of helping people...this was big deal. i freak out and feel guilty when i don't have anything to give, but when i do i am usally too much of a wuss to give them food. God blessed me with the strength to bless this man. when i handed them to him his eyes lit up really bright. i told him that christ loved him very much and i found myself wanting to pour out my heart to him. when i told him how much Christ love him he said, "he must because you stopped to help". i was blessed. i didn't do anything spectacular or anything worthy of praise...i just fed his sheep. that's all He asks of us. most days i am too inconvenienced to do so...thank you Lord for providing me with an opportunity and giving me the strength needed.