it has taken me a bit of time to get back onto here. finals are done...praise Jesus! it has been a crazy week behind me. to texas and back for micah's wedding which was beautiful....it was crazy to watch someone so dear to my heart get married. but i'm excited for him and christy. finals were tuesday and wednesday. my computer crashed on monday. i came home on thursday. been at calvin crest since yesterday morning and came back this afternoon for yet another friends wedding. wierd.

calvin crest is a place that is so very special to me. being up there was hard. i want to be there....i want to be in those relationships that people have up there. i want to be apart of the ministry. i want to be loved on like i always have been up there. yet God has called me elsewhere this summer. called me to sit and rest. to enjoy where i am and not be so quick to move onto the next thing. to keep a committment. to get involved where i am....not necessarily where i want to be. i was ready to stay. it would not have taken too much convincing. when i arrived yesterday there was an outpour of love. i felt kinda like the receiving that the prodigal son had when he came back. it was if i had come home. people were excited to see me....excited to love me...excited to know me as i really am and love me that way- the good, bad, and ugly all included. i could have stayed there. saying good-bye is always hard....i don't want to miss things going on up there....but i will. i will miss out on a lot of it, but i will also miss out on a lot in SLO if i don't dive in and get involved. calvin crest is easy for me...it's a safe haven....it's home. SLO is a scary world....it's unknown...it's uncomfortable....it's where i am called to be.
God is sovereign. i know this. i know that He will watch over me and take care of me. He will hold tight friendships near and far if it goes that way. I will trust that He has it all figured out...and will guide me.

i love you friends....i hope you know how beautiful you all are and how much Christ loves you.