last night i was talking to my very wonderful friend Craig Povey....I heard some truth that was obviously from God, but spoken so tenderly out of his mouth.

"you can never be giving too much. you will feel that you are though when you are receiving too little. relationships are about giving and receiving"

i heard those words as if i had never heard them before. i thought that i was giving too much because somehow i kept on hurting. i love giving, but it sucks when you have nothing left to give and you are empty and you have not received. that is not how friends treat each other...that is not love. Christ does call us to love regardless of how painful it is, and i am experiencing a lot of pain lately in loving others, but i think we are also to be surrounded by those who will love us in return as well. i had forgotten to do that. thank you Jesus for reminding me to do this. as difficult as it is to change i am confident that you will provide in this time of hurting and you will pave the road ahead of me so that i can walk and when i am too weak i trust that you will carry me.