the way my mind works is tricky....i am full of self defeating thoughts. last night my post was written out of a broken lonely heart...pain was flowing from me. but God blessed me with sweet rest last night and is restoring my soul again today. i am honest about being broken...that's just how i do things....i think it's better than holding it in. things are working themselves out and i am being reminded all over the place that Christ chooses me and has called me His beloved. i need to find complete satisfaction in that...complete satisfaction. i'm not there yet....but He's bringing me there. thank you friends for your concerns and prayers....i am loved by my Father in incredible ways and i do infact have many brothers and sisters in Him that love me as well. time to finish off this 8 hour class day.... 3 hours left!