so my week of school is done....a good thing indeed. i like knowing that i have the next three days to relax. mmmm. this was a good week though....i had three midterms which weren't as bad as i had thought they might be...we'll see how i did. i met with my helpee for my helping relationship class which went well. it's a cool thing what we get to do... hmmm what else... well i got a lot of hw done this week too which is a good feeling, but i do have a bunch of reading to do this weekend and some bio labs that just need to be done. i have a paper i could write, but i may put that off until next week...maybe not. we'll see. basically there's a lot i can get started on and i will do just that because i don't want to put it off... i'm not into that. or atleast i try to not be into it. it's been absolutely gorgeous here this week...65-70 degrees and sunny with a breeze. i love it. i am sad that i cannot ride my bike because it's perfect weather...but that's life when you're injured. i could be rebellious, but i hear it doesn't get you very far in life. so i will listen to doctors orders and refrain. sad day for katie. i have recently discovered that about 3 o'clock i shut down and get really tired until about 6pm. it's crazy...my body can barely stay awake. unfortunately i have class from 3-6pm two days a week. ugh. the quarter is now half over and i am feeling it. this mean the tough times have yet to come. yippee.

well my heart is being challenged a lot everyday. i am in classes with really wonderful people, but a good portion of them have different values than i do. it's hard to not want to be sucked in...but i am trying to stand my ground. Christ is supporting me the whole way because if He wasn't i would be flat on my face by now. i am also being challenged by what it means to be a christian...i know i wrote about this already but it's still heavy on my heart. i want to be real and genuine, but i want to be shining for Jesus. i want people to know God and yet you wouldn't sense that through my interactions with them. i think i long way too much to be accepted and loved by people around me than i long for them to know Christ. man that's not what i want to be longing for. i tell people to fall on their knees before Jesus yet here i am walking away.... i don't get it. i mean i understand full well that i am a sinner, but i thought i was better than that....truth is i'm not. i am loved but not because i did anything worthy of being loved. i am loved because i accepted His truth. i am sick of the bickering in the christian community about what is the "right" way to do everything and the "right" way to be a christian... i am sick of people saying the spirit isn't moving in the church when in fact we are likely overlooking what the spirit is infact doing....i am frustrated by my brothers and sisters who are trying to impress me by talking nonstop about their devotion to Christ in their discipline and yet they don't bother to love on me and hear my heart. i am tired of a lot of things....i am struggling to see what it is that we christians are doing that is anything like what Christ would have of us... alright i'm done with my complaining for now... i need to go be with Jesus...the only one who has answers to my questions and the only one who can heal the wounds.