today is my midterm....i've studied long and hard for this test. i think about it though and really, what does it matter if i don't ace this test or any test for that matter..... God's love isn't conditional... i do want to worship him through being a good student, but that also means i need to set aside time to spend with him too! how can i be worshiping him if i never spend time w/ Him? i am being convicted.... Jesus cause me to fall down and be worthless. i don't want to just be okay or just fine or just getting by.... not good enough because you are sooo much better than all that.... you provide me with soooooooo much more joy than that!

More than fine- Switchfoot

When I wake in the morning,
I wanna blow into pieces,
I want more than just okay, more than just okay

When I'm up with the sunrise,
I want more than just the blueskies,
I want more than just okay, more than just okay

I'm not givin' up, givin' up, not givin' up now,
Not givin' up, givin' up, not backing down

More than fine, more than bent on getting by,
More than fine, more than just okay

When I'm lit with the sunshine,
I want more than just a good time,
I want more than just okay, I want more than just okay
Okay

I'm not givin' up, givin' up, not givin' up now
I'm not givin' up, givin' up, not selling out

More than fine, more than bent on getting by,
More than fine, more than just okay
More than fine,more than bent on getting by,
More than fine, more than just okay

Moving oceans away from the dawn
Moving oceans away from the dawn
Moving oceans away from who we are
Moving oceans, moving oceans
Yeah

More than fine, more than bent on getting by,
More than fine, more than just okay
Okay, Okay, Okay, Okay
Fine, more than bent on getting by,
More than fine, more than just okay

Andrea-you got me hooked! those guys have some amazing gifts to put my heart into words and song.... thank you Jesus for good friends who love me and for good song writers who help me understand what i'm feeling :)

time to conquer this beast!