today was an unproductive day. i did some shopping for my dad and worked on christmas stuff. i like being home. i went running this morning, but it was super chilly.... so i wore my whinnie the pooh mittens :) i feel like a little kid when i wear them. today the big shopping center here was massively crowded. i hate going out to those places when everyone else and their mom is there... ahhh!! i get claustrophobic. well i miss my friends. i have come to the conclusion that i have a hard time with the fact that my closest friends don't live near me, let alone in this state. oh well... that happens sometimes. i love you all and have a good night-

Jesus- you are indeed incredible. i echo the prayer in the switchfoot song that andrea brought to my attention that I want your love to be enough. i want a lot of things including both material things and the love/attention of people around me, but in reality i have all i need... your love. i want to be content and completely satisfied with that. i'm getting closer, but i'm not there. i am reminded all the time that i really want to be in a relationship and it preocupies my thoughts a lot, but Jesus I need to be in love with You before i can be in love with a boy. hmm. okay well i need to fall on my knees and probably on my face too before you! i love you Lord. thank you for coming so that we may have life.