i've come to the point in my thoughts that i have a hard time with people. i struggle a lot. i love people a lot and a lot of times it hurts. i've cried many tears over people who are dear to me and who i really enjoy their company.... i feel that i put more of myself into friendships and get hurt. hmmm. tonight i went to church here at home and it was wonderful. i saw friends who i hadn't seen in a long time and no matter how much time goes by inbetween seeing them it's like we never parted. i'm going climbing tomorrow with james and micah, two incredible guys who i count among my greatest friends. i don't see them much and don't talk to them much but they have been very important in my life. i am thankful for my friends here. i hope to spend time with them a lot and catch up with them while i'm home. i want to be a better friend. I am learning what that means.... even if it is slowly. thank you all of you friends of mine who are precious to me. i love you all! thank you for reminding me that I am special because I am His child. i want to know that Joy that the wisemen had... i want to be reminded of it... right now i don't think i am sure of it and this quarter has been killer. Jesus rekindle your fire within me that once burned bright. i long for you to quench my spirit and fill me up to overflowing once again. i am tired. i am worn out. i long to rest in my fathers arms and be wrapped in his warm embrace... only there will i find relief from what i struggle with and only there will i be set free.
good night!