Adam, where are you? - God....

God a heart broken father wonders where we are when we mess up....hmmm it's not an angry question, but one of sadness.... where are you? i know i try to hide when i screw up. praise Jesus that we don't have to because God is looking for us and searching us out...

man that's a cool thought. today was long and not as productive as i had hoped, but that happens. i went to church this morning and afterwards my friend asked, "what did God teach you?" i honestly couldn't have told her right then. my reply was, "i was tired...i was trying to stay awake". at that point i didn't know exactly what God has taught me...i'm not a person who experiences something then can say exactly what i learned...i have to think about it and let it sink in. it was a good service this morning. i really like calvary slo. the pastor bryan....speaks from his heart and i sense passionate love for Jesus through his words. he didn't go to college, he's maybe not the most educated of people, but he's sharing the gospel with people and he started a church. crazy...i put so much investment into this degree i'm getting.... but am i forgetting about God?? am i worshipping the work i do and the success that will come?? where does God fit into the picture?? i was convicted today. i worship dust particles that you can see when the light is penetrating into a room....but i forget about the light that is making seeing those particles posible. people are lame, but forgiven. i would challenge you to not ignore the particles, but make sure you are realizing every day that those particles are only possible because of the light (Jesus). huh. well there ya go.

i am tired. i go home on tuesday which is andreas birthday...i'm sad that i will not get to see her on her 21st.....but hopefully it will be soon after :) thanksgiving is one of my favorite holidays... it's not about the meal (although i do really enjoy it) but it's about coming together as a family and thanking God for everything. last year at this time my mom was in a wheelchair unable to have our "normal" thanksgiving, but we were still thankful. cool how things work out. man i'm a chatter box tonight. it was good day and only two days of school this week :) all i have left this quarter is some reading...and two quizzes...well then finals, but who cares about them.... okay okay i do. alrighty folks i'm headed out to go to Celebration.... have a blessed night!

The Only One - Caedmon's Call

I come from a long line of leavers
Out of the garden gate with an apple in their hands
I expect and I believe
You're gonna run out of love
You're gonna give me the shove
'Cause that's the thing that lovers do Then there's you

You found me cynical and jaded
You lifted my mask and lightened me up
And when my black eyes have faded
I found they were not gouged
Had the coal in my mouth
I've never seen the old age new
And then there's you

You're the only one
Who knows my secrets
You're the only one
Still you're the only one
Who never leaves
And I wake up to this mystery

I betrayed you with a little kiss
I thought you'd find someone better
And you forgave me even for this
Came to the upper room
You dragged me from the tomb
There is none both good and true
Then there's you