it's saturday. today was nice to sleep in and then i rode over to borders and read a whole chapter. yay me! i got home and well my heart is burdened. i wrote some letters being painfully honest which i really don't like to do and now i just want to cry. hmm. some people it's easy to share your heart and know that it'll be okay either way and with others, well i don't know how it'll turn out. it worries me. okay so i need to stop worrying for sure and be blessed by Jesus. i am being reminded in a big way today that I need to be patient and wait for God's timing. I DO NOT NEED A BOY IN MY LIFE!!! it's merely a want....and well i spend far too much time thinking about it. i want to be satisfied completely with Jesus and His love for me. I am loved, valued, appreciated, accepted, cherished, and all that other stuff by Him.....i do not need it to come from anyone else. ugh. alright God lets do this.