so i was right...sleep did me good as it usually does when i get enough of it. i woke up this morning at 9:30 am which is the latest i've woken up in awhile. so while most would consider that early....it was sleeping in for me :) today and the next three days i have off....i'm sure i'll find ways to be productive, but as for now i'm pretty excited to be doing absolutely nothing. since i have time i will write some about my summer....
well it was freakin incredible. God blows me away all the time and i am in awe. this summer was the summer of loneliness for me. i felt like i was battling with it all the time, but in that i learned a lot about joy. the other night when i was driving back up to camp from fresno my buddy phillip said, "i think you know a lot more about joy than you think you do." it's true....i know what it is.... but i have learned how to choose it. not that i always do, but it's a process....like most everything is. so the whole joy thing has been way cool. this summer was also a time for God to show me that i do not put Him first. I sing songs that say i am sustained by His love completely, but i do not let Him fill me up. I think i have put way too much into people and boys in particular. yes i'm a girl...and i like boys as i should, but i want to let God be my all before i try to make some guy my all. God has been faithful to me in the past...why would this time be any different? it won't be, but somehow my mind justifies the thinking that this time i probably need to figure it out just in case God isn't faithful...that's lame. of course God will be faithful. In lamentations we read that God is faithful and his mercies are new every morning. He will provide for those who rely on Him. so that's good.
on top of all that....i learned a lot about events stuff....like how to belay, repel, lifeguard, do lots of cool stuff....man my job is the greatest....i mean we get to play and hang out with kids and tell them about jesus....what could make it any better?? so that's my life as of now. lonely, yes, but joyful too. God you rock. i am blessed....that's all there is to it. thank you Jesus.